No one actually really cared right? Why can't i feel more concern n love from people around me. Why is it always Kathy, Ziying n even Ms Choo the only ones tt will even care? why why why? Why is it that i have to know somone like her? why? so irritating. why carnt i show attitude. why dunch people jus sack me from choir. i totally can't visualise anything in my life in choir. wad can i get from it? humiliation? anger? hatred? wad else? ? ? ? ? ? ? maybe one day i'll jus hav an unstable mental state. i'll jus go around killing people. or maybe start hurting myself. or maybe start to numb myself. or wad? Why can't Ms Choo be more hard hearted? maybe den i'll bear to leave this whole choir. Why why why she has to care so much. making me feel so touched? why is ziying n kathy in choir? why? i can't leave them oso. I dunch know wad's wrong with me. i jus can't stand it anymore. jus let me explode once n maybe i'll feel so much better.........
