maybe even the computer doesn't wan me to complain anymore. . tt i can't publish tt post i've typed in. now tt i have to re-type.
i'll still wan to complain. i can't stand it. jus take it tt i no longer live in this world. im in a world of dreams. dreaming of all good things dere are. i no longer belong to this world. i cant blend in. im no capable to blend in. Ms Choo perhaps im e impatient one. nort u. U trusted me too much. But really thanks 4 everything tt u send me. U've been a nice friend, a nice conductor, a person i can always look 4. I visualise nothing in my life in choir. wad can i see? humiliation? anger? disappointment? hatred?
choir choir n choir almost everyday. anyone bothered about my cough. everytime i got better, dere's choir next day making the stupid cough come back again. it has been fer like almost a month. does anyone care? i know ziying would i know kathy would. who else is dere to take notice about me? i know my God would. but is there jus so little people in this world tt cares?
the three of us wasn't feeling well druing the parade. we went to the back to rest. after the whole thing, Le Ying actually came to say ' ni men shan ge shuang larh ' is like we r not feeling well, is tt suppose to be sarcastic or wad? not as if we r enjoying ourselves ok! i HATE u. think u r the first ever person i can say HATE other den tt toopid guy who is siao! i can't stand u anymore le ying. u better not make me upset another time. u will hab to pay fer it. i'll make ur life in choir miserable as long as im in choir. u better watch out. im not like this in the past. all these people like here forced me. dunch make me do it. i dunch even know wad i'll do if i were to explode. dunch try to teach me wad to do toopid juniors! i oni hab a pair of ears. not hundred pairs. n dunch think u r so great. dunch think u can do better den me. dunch try to be funny. im not going to be there to tolerate things i dunch like anymore. im jus going to show it. if i dunch show it, people won't know. they wont change. so if 1 day i were to explode. wouldn't it b worse? wonder if ms soo gonna warn the juniors n people in choir expecially matthew u r next person i wish to get rid. dunch talk back to me anymore. i wan to tear off ur mouth!
