ACCOUNT OF TODAE N YTD!
todae wasn't a good dae fer me. i oso dunch noe why mood swing until beli li hai. one moment laugh until crazy person, the other moment quiet like someone died. i oso dunch noe why, as time pass by, the more sad i get. sad sad sad.. miss pauline's voice.. when would she n i go back to the past where we talk n crap n share about everything under the sun?? miss her..
jus very hurt by my mum's words. i mean, i really tried my best to revise fer my mid year ler lorh..
...in chinese...
me: mummy, i fail my geog/ss.. 30 plus oni..
mummy: u never try ur best right?
me: I did lorh.. this two subjects i spend most effort on it de lorh
mummy: u only tried half of wad u can, if u hav tried ur best, u would hav at least passed ler..
me: whole class only 3 pple pass lorh
mummy: tt's why, only the 3 tried their best..
i mean wad is tt suppose to mean. everytime, every tests n exams oso like tt. i really did revise, she say i never. say i got alot alo freedom. if so, let me go church!! she was like saying tt everytime i din get good results, i still able to go out anywhere i wan. WHERE IN THE WORLD DID SHE LET ME GO OUT?? i din go out with my friends for every long le lorh!! not tt kind of after sch go eat l
arh.. den she side track til far away. Say about the future n stuff, she really hav no faith in me de lorh, say next time i grow up, i may not even feed her. yeah yeah..
'sho true' i will love her foreva de lorh..
i love her so much, did so much things fer her nowadays.. n wad she said really hurts me lorh. Her words is like saying i have been bad mouthing her alot lorh. I DID NONE OF TT. i hav been telling the whole world MY MUM IS THE BEST, SHE IS VERY NICE!!!
really really hurts.. i know n i know wadeva she said means good, but can she stand in my shoes n think about wad she said to me. i did so much, not jus to go back to church lor, i really wanted her to feel proud of me, but i din get that kinda results... i hate myself.. i remembered i never got a praise from her b4 fer my results. i got 1st in P4. she was saying 'u can do betta de lorh.. why only get this' tt dae, i was walking home feeling so proud of myself, thinking tt i can finally hear a praise from my mum. i dint. i din blame her, thinking tt maybe i disappoint her too much. but til now.. i still din hear a single praise from her b4..
i think i'm a very lan person lorh.. in the sense my xiao dear on the verge of breaking up, falling apart, n i dint know a single thing until todae. to think she was with me encouraging me when i was down. i feel so bad.. but im not suppose to be sad, i suppose to live everyday with life. wad am i doing nehx? gonna encourage xiao dear tomolo.. hope she's getting betta with her dear..hmmx. . .
a report on my results.. [dunch b shocked]
english : 61 - B4 (ok quite good, fer me larhx)
chinese : 74 - A2 (quite happy quite sad.. 1 more mark to A1!!)
history : 70 - A2 (happy! surprsied! only distinction in class)
goeg/ss : 33 - F9 (sad sad sad.. studied most, failed most badly)
ART : 60 - B4 (quite happy~ cox i was slacking.. hahahx)
maths : 58 - C5 (extremely satisfied! failed all my tests, n i passed this!)
science : D7 - 47 (disappointed in both papers.. mus study!)
ok tt's all.. n my L1R5 would be 24.. an improvement from CA1 where i got 29 for my L1R5.. hahahs.. ok, mus work even harder.. gotta be more consistent in my work ler.
alright~ good bye, nites..
